Our sweet baby girl turned 7 months last week!!! She has really taken off. She is crawling ALL over the place! Trying to pull up on everything. Holding her own bottle. Eating anything that we put on a spoon. Laughing when she’s tickled or surprised. Always smiling at her big brothers.
She weighs 20 pounds and is 26 inches long. She wears 9-12 month clothes and is in size 4 diapers.
She is such a joy. My heart is so full of love. So lucky that she’s mine!
“I’ll love you forever. I’ll like you for always. As long as I’m living my baby you’ll be.” I’ve been saying those words for sixteen years now. My biggest baby turned sixteen yesterday.
I swear I blinked and he went from being my tiny little boy with freckles and a big personality to this handsome young man.
He was my first true love. He’s had me wrapped around his finger since the day he was born.
They grow up so fast. You hear those words all the time but they are so true. I try to soak up every moment that I still have him at home because I know I’m only a few years away from him going off to college.
Parenting a teenager isn’t a easy job. There is a lot of give and take. Deciding how hard to push and how much responsibility to put on them. You learn to pick your battles. There are good and bad days. I’m lucky that they are mostly good with Nate. He’s a good student. A great athelete. And a wonderful big brother. I’m proud of who he’s becoming and proud that I helped turn him into who he’s going to be.
It’s so easy to pretend that things are wonderful when they’re not. That your life is picture perfect when it’s not. That you’re always happy when you’re not. I’m tired of seeing people put on a show for social media. … Continue reading →
Of course I’m late posting Quinn’s 5 month update again…but better late than never.
She keeps getting sweeter by the day. She is such a happy baby. I keep saying I’m afraid to talk about what a good baby she is for fear that it will change!
She wakes up smiling and talking. It’s so precious.
She weighs 18 lbs and 8 oz which is in the 90th percentile for weight. And she is 25.5 inches long which is in the 75th percentile for height. She is wearing 6-9 month clothes.
She loves watching her big brothers. They always capture her attention when they’re in the room.
She is rolling over like a champ now. She’s really close to sitting up on her own. She loves sitting in her jeep and jumping in her jumpy seat. She’s still back and forth between bottles and breastfeeding. We tried rice cereal for the first time and surprisingly it wasn’t her favorite thing. I just thought she would take to it right away but I’m sure she’ll get the hang of it soon.
This summer you could say Noah has bloomed! He has made wonderful progress with his speech and development. We were able to transfer his therapies to Nashville and he has transitioned so well! We see his speech therapist twice a week for a hour. And then see the occupational therapist and developmental therapist both once a week for a hour. His schedule keeps us busy and on the go but it’s all very worth it!
He’s like a little sponge soaking up everything around him. In a few short months he’s gone from less that a handful of words to at least 20 words. He is feeding himself using a fork now and using a spoon with assistance. He can point to some body parts and name them. He can identify animals by pointing them out in a book and make their sounds. We are overjoyed with his progress this summer. Seeing how far he’s come has calmed many of our fears and given us lots of hope for when he starts school in Novemeber.
Next month he will be evaluated for autism and we look forward to hearing what they think is going on with our little guy. No matter what they tell us we know that he is on the right track and we are doing everything possible to help him succeed.
Les officially finished her second year of medical school June 24th. We turned around the next day and moved back to middle Tennessee. She will now be finishing her last two years doing clinical work mostly in the hospital setting. Her core rotations will be in Hopkinsville, KY but she can do the majority of her selectives and electives here in Nashville.
We found out the first week of July that she passed her board exams with flying colors. I was so very proud of her and all the time that she put into studying for them. Those scores are the ones that will help determine which residency program she will get matched to. At this point we know the likelihood of us being in middle Tennessee or even within driving distance is pretty slim but honestly I think I’m ready for a big change. Living in East Tennessee was such a wonderful adventure. But we’re so excited to be back close to family and friends. So we will enjoy being here for the next two years while she finishes out the final two years of school.
Finding a place to live wasn’t quite as easy as we had thought it would be. We moved into a studio apartment behind my grandparents home while we searched for housing. Six weeks later and we’re still there! Free is always fantastic but living with 2 adults and 2 babies in the size of extra large hotel room can be a little crowded. (Nathan has been living at my parents for the summer. We didn’t leave him behind.😊) We finally decided to just move into a three bedroom apartment since we’ve had no luck finding a house to rent. We move in this Friday and I’m looking forward to being back in a routine, being in our own space and having all of us under one roof again.
I am admittedly addicted to Instagram. I love finding Lesbian and Gay Families to Follow. Sure FB is fine and I still have an account but I rarely use it. I hate all the ramblings of angry people and politics so I try to stay away. Now Instagram on the other hand is so easy and happy. I follow gay and lesbian families from all over and I love it. Seeing all of these beautiful families makes me so happy. Not to mention I post pictures of our adorable kiddos all the time on there. ☺️ If you’re on IG find me! @mbessterrell
2. Baby wearing.
Quinn loves to be held and with a toddler on the run its impossible to get anything done when your arms are tied up holding a baby so my answer to this is babywearing. My two favorite carriers are my original ergo baby and my palm pond ring sling. The ergo is great for walks or wearing her for extended periods of time. The ring sling is great for around the house and running into the store. I don’t leave the house without either one of them. Quinn loves both of them and I don’t think I could function without wearing her!
3. Tello Films with Onemorelesbian.com
I recently received a message from one of their reps asking me to check out their site and I’m so glad I did! Tello films produces web series geared toward the lesbian viewer. I’ve been able to watch several of their Original pieces and I’m hooked. “I Kissed a Girl” is my favorite!!! It’s a documentary series about girls first kisses with other girls and I love it! I love hearing the stories of how different lesbians came to realize that they were gay. It is so much fun to watch something that you can completely relate to. Below I’m adding a link to their site so you can check out the series I’m talking about. Hope you will take the time to take a look and enjoy it as much as I have.
I had forgotten until recently how much I loved to read. I suppose now that I have 3 kids my free time for reading is limited but I found myself taking the time to read at night before bed, when the kids are napping and at work. I had forgotten how it feels to get lost in a book. How it feels to fall in love with a character and their story. So currently I’m reading Wild by Cheryl Strayed and I really like it but I would love to have more books lined up to read. I need suggestions!
June was such an awesome month. The United States Supreme Court made history with their decision on June 26th. It especially meant a lot to our family because we still lived in a state that did not recognize our marriage and had upheld the ban on same sex marriage. So to say we were overjoyed with the decision would be an understatement. Nashville’s annual pride festival could not have been on a better weekend being held right after we received the news.
The month of June is already gone and I completely forgot to post her 3 month update. Well better late than never! Quinn just gets better by the day. She is our little chunky monkey and we can’t get enough of her. She is primarily breastfeeding but taking bottles well when we aren’t at home or when I’m at work on the weekends. She sleeps like a champ, waking up just once a night to eat then goes right back to sleep. She is the happiest first thing in the morning. She still loves loves loves to be held. She gets her feelings hurt easily when you lay her down to play on her activity mat. She has the most adorable expressions and has us laughing all the time! Ah ok you get it…we adore her.
So easy to get behind when life is hectic…. Month two just flew by!
She was less than thrilled about taking her picture this month. Haha. (no babies were hurt in the making of this photo)
She seems to change everytime we blink and we just love her so much! She can hold her head up and smile. She still loves to eat, if you couldn’t already tell by her weight and little rolls! ☺️ She loves loves loves to be held still. There are days that I have to wear her around the house in the sling or ergo baby just to get anything done.
Noah still pretends she doesn’t exsist or cries when I try to get him to hold her. But on a few occasions I’ve caught him smiling at her or touching her head and it melts my heart! I know that once she gets bigger and a little more interesting he’ll enjoy having her around.
April 27th marked two years since I lost my brother.
Two years later…
I still miss him. His laugh. His stories. His silliness. His big hugs.
I still cry when I hear songs played at his funeral.
I still have flash backs of the day he died when I hear the song I was listening to when I got the call about him. Justin Timberlake, Mirrors.
I still wake up somedays and forget that he’s gone. Its easy to feel like he’s still on vacation in Colorado and will return one day.
I still regret not doing more and run through the what if’s in my head.
I still see how much pain my parents are in from losing their only son.
You learn that when you lose someone due to a drug overdose many people assume that it was a suicide or that he was a junkie. People make many assumptions about anyone who is an addict. The untimely deaths of a couple of actors due to addiction has helped to shed light on the problem but the assumptions are still out there.
I wish he was still here to see how are family has grown. I hate that Noah and Quinn will never know him. Two years later and it still hurts. I miss my big brother.
In March Noah started therapy. He is seeing a speech therapist for his speech delay and an occupational therapist for his sensory and development delays. He really likes both of his therapists. They are both so sweet and work great with him. Of course I wish I could say that we had instant success and that he is rambling on in sentences but it doesn’t work that way. I remind myself of that daily but he is making progress. Each week I see them challenge him with new activities and he does a great job adapting to new things and tries to do what is asked of him.
As a parent I still have lots of moments of feeling overwhelmed and sad. I love to hear his little voice and we cheer every time he says anything. He still only has a few words. He doesn’t say mama or mommy yet and that along with I love you are the things I want to hear the most. Some days I blame myself for not doing enough and think what can I do differently to help him. I just wish I had answers and wish I could do something more.
We are moving in June for Les to start her third year of medical school and to start clinical rotations. We are planning on starting Noah in a mother’s day out twice a week in August and it makes me a nervous wreck. I know it is a silly thing to worry over because I’m sure he’ll do fine but because he can’t talk I worry that the teachers wont know what needs. I’ve become an expert at knowing his little quirks and knowing when he’s thirsty, hungry, tired, wants his monkey, etc. But its time for him to be around other kiddos. I know it will be great for him and I’ll look back and think how silly I was to worry.
I just love that little boy soooo much. He has me wrapped around his finger.
I’ll leave you with a few recent pictures of our little guy ☺️
Miss Quinn has stolen our hearts. We just adore her. She spends most of her time sleeping but this girl loves to eat any time she’s awake. She has almost out grown all of her newborn clothes already! She has adorable chubby cheeks, lots of dark brown hair and beautiful blue eyes.