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Full Term Pregnancy

37 weeks

I’ll be 38 weeks along in just 2 days.  And that means we’re here at the end of this pregnancy just sitting back and waiting on Miss Quinn to be ready to make her appearance. I still feel really good considering how huge I am. ÔĽŅOf course I’m not moving very fast these days but at least I’m still mobile. 

My new favorite thing that everyone says to me is “ooh you’ve dropped. You look like you could go any day now.” Well thank you for your input but I promise I haven’t dropped…been carrying her low the entire time and no, I won’t have her any day now bc she’s not due until March 13th and I don’t get lucky and go into labor early. My body likes to be pregnant the FULL 40 weeks before it let’s the baby out. I mean really I can’t tell these ladies who have their babies at 36-38 weeks enough about how much they’re missing out on by not enduring a full 40 weeks of pregnancy. The last two weeks are probably my least favorite. So for those that have missed out I’ll just tell them how wonderful it is to wake up every hour to pee then spend 15 mins getting comfortable again to go back to sleep. Oh and who can forget the fact your sweet baby is finally out grown their space and you can feel every little move they make as if they are trying to climb out of your tummy themselves. I don’t sound bitter do I bc I’m not just resolved to the reality that my babies want to be full term. And that’s ok with me especially this time bc I’m trying to cherish the last couple of weeks that I have with just the boys. 

Noah may have a harder time adjusting to Quinn than Nate. Les has been super emotional about Noah no longer being her baby. She’s worried about how he’s going to feel with her getting so much attention. I’m sure he’s going to have to take some time to adjust but I know he’ll be fine .

Took a few pics today enjoying the snow. We’re going on week number two of being snowed in. Apparently we in the south think the world should stop when there is snow on the ground especially if it’s more that a couple of inches and we’ve had about a foot of snow. I think it’s beautiful but I’m just ready to get back on a regular schedule. ūüėÉ‚ĚĄÔłŹ‚õĄÔłŹÔĽŅ



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The Home Stretch

This Friday marks 30 weeks. I must confess that this hasn’t felt like it’s flown by at all. It’s felt like it’s creeping along. But finally feel like we’re in the home stretch.

I’ve felt huge this pregnancy and at my 28 week visit I went from measuring right on track to measuring 4 weeks ahead of where I am! He said he wants to do an ultrasound next visit to see how big she is. So we shall see if we are going to be having a big baby this time!

After discussing it with our doctor we’ve decided to try to have a vaginal delivery instead of just scheduling a c-section. He said that I’m a great candidate for a V-bac because I was able to have a vaginal birth with my first birth, so we know my body can do it. Now if we find out that she’s an extra big girl those plans may change but we’ll see. I’m a little nervous about some of the complications that can come along with a v-bac but he’s assured me that he’s never had the complications that we’re concerned about and he wouldn’t risk my health. We trust his judgement and just hope that everything goes smoothly.

She is a very active little lady and I just can’t wait to meet her and see her face. After letting some of our closest friends and family help with picking a name we have officially settled in on one and I am so excited! Her name will be Quinn!

Below I added some pictures from our Christmas break. Les got a little over two weeks off from school and we couldn’t be happier to have her all to ourselves for the break. Of course we haven’t done anything exciting, mostly enjoyed relaxing. Stayed with my parents for the two weeks so it’s not like being at home but we’ve enjoyed seeing our family and friends while we have the time.
Christmas was wonderful and so much fun this year. Noah enjoyed opening his own gifts. Christmas morning he opened his dinosaur first and wanted nothing to do with any other gifts…took quite a while to convince him to even look at anything else. Nate being a teenager now got mostly clothes but was still up early ready to open gifts. I guess no matter how old they get they will always love getting presents.
And our New Years Eve party was a blast we spent the night with two of our closest couple friends and enjoyed watching our kiddos run around.
I’m happy to have Christmas and New Years behind us and looking forward to what 2015 has in store for our little family!











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The Home Stretch

A few of the reasons¬†I know I’ve reached the Home Stretch…

I waddle instead of walk.

I go to the bathroom at minimum every two hours.

My Belly takes on a life of its own moving and shaking uncontrollably when he’s awake. He’s a super active baby already!

I no longer have a belly button…as much as I hate to admit it…it¬†looks like an outie now.

I’ve been nesting…I find myself in the nursery¬†ALL the time¬†organizing and reorganizing things. Last week I got a burst of¬†energy and decided while Les was sleeping I would mow the grass, trim all of our bushes, and rake it all up. (She wasn’t so happy with me when she woke up.) I’ve packed up our bags for the hospital and also have a bag for Noah.

So I have¬†just two weeks left until my due date. I can’t believe that we’ve made it already. I¬†think we are¬†nervous and excited all at the same time. Started seeing my doc once a week now. We had an ultrasound at our 36 week visit. It was so exciting to see him again. We hadn’t had an ultrasound since I was 20 weeks along. He was so big! He weighed approximately 6lbs and 2oz. He had cute little chubby cheeks and sweet little lips! He is head down and you could even see that he had hair on his head…which totally explains the insane amount of heartburn that I’ve been having! The ultrasound showed that I have more than normal amniotic fluid so we’ll be in for a treat if it breaks at home. Our doc seems to think that I’ll go into labor on my own before our due date. At our visit last week I was happy to hear that my cervix was soft now and I had dilated to almost 2cm already. So for now we are just waiting. It could be any day now! We are ready to meet little Noah and see him in person. Promise to update everyone when he arrives!

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We finally got the news that we have been waiting for…Les was accepted into Med School! I can’t say enough how proud I am of her and all of her hard work. When she didn’t get in last year we were super disappointed but the wait was well worth it. She will start school August 2013! We have about¬†10 months¬†get our house sold, me find¬†a job, decide where to live, find Nathan a school, and¬†pack up¬†and move to southern Alabama. Of course moving further into the Bible Belt was not my first choice but we decided a long time ago that we would be willing to go wherever she was accepted.

I will admit that leaving all of our friends and leaving my family makes me sad. We have a great support system here and I know that we will be starting from scratch once we move. I am super close with my family. I see and talk to my family on a daily basis. My sister and her¬†family live 10 mins away. My grandparents¬†and parents both live just 2 streets away from us.¬†From day one I have always had the help of my parents when its come to raising Nate and they pretty much think of him as the 4th child they never had. This move is going to be really¬†hard on them…well honestly its going to be really hard on¬†all of us.¬†I know moving over 6 hours away, with 2 boys and a wife that¬†will be¬†beyond busy with school,¬†is going to be the hardest thing I’ve ever done.¬†Hoping by then that I will have adjusted to being the mom of 2 instead of 1. I’m scared and excited all at the same time.

Right now I’m trying to take it one day at a time and not get overwhelmed. We’re going to focus on getting Noah here safely in the next 6 to 7 weeks before we start looking in to renting the U-Hauls for our big move.


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Time to Celebrate

Our FIRST baby shower is coming up next week and¬†I am so excited about having one. When I was pregnant with Nate I never had a baby shower.¬†I was¬†really young when I was pregnant with him and¬†my parents didn’t exactly¬†want to celebrate¬†my teen¬†pregnancy¬†so I didn’t get to have one.¬†Now I’m not saying that I don’t¬†I understand why…because I can’t imagine what it would be like to have your 17-year-old daughter having a baby…But this time is different.¬†This pregnancy¬†was very planned and prepared for and¬†I am so excited to finally¬†have a baby shower to celebrate the arrival of our little Noah.

A baby registry…you pick the items you’s like¬†people to buy for you who are coming to your shower…sounds simple enough. Ummm¬†no… its not simple.¬†Setting up a baby registry is super overwhelming! I have spent hours trying to get us registered. I have¬†done the majority of this on-line in the comfort of¬†our home but still.¬†There are so many options, choices and brands! Holy Moly! I have read so many reviews on baby products that it is unreal. I never have been one¬†who wanted to know or even cared what others opinions are but with baby stuff I really care. I love reading if other moms found the product useful or worth buying. I will admit that other moms’¬†reviews have drawn me to and even pushed me aways from certain products.

So as of now we really have nothing for baby Noah other than a few blankets and a few outfits. We are literally¬†registering for everything.¬†Right now¬†the nursery looks pretty bare.¬†Having only a few things in his room is making me super nervous considering we only have 8 weeks left! I’ll be excited to start filling the nursery with stuff after this first shower and start feeling prepared for his arrival.

Overall I’m feeling pretty¬†good but getting more and more uncomfortable. I’m really ready to get this show on the road. 8 weeks and counting! I know that if I’m uncomfortable now that it’s not going to be getting any better til he’s here.


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16 Weeks to go…Emotions Running Wild

I feel like I have neglected to update my blog lately. I find it hard to write most days. I have writers block or something. But I wanted to let everyone know how things were going. According to my What To Expect Pregnancy App… We have 16 weeks to go. The baby is the size of an Eggplant (I don’t know what a eggplant really looks like so that comparison doesn’t help me)….9 inches and 1.7lbs (Now that I can understand). He loves to move! Les is finally enjoying getting to feel him kick and punch. We never know when its going to happen so she often sits with her hands on my tummy while we’re watching TV or about to fall asleep. I love to see her face when she gets to feel him move…such a sweet moment.

So I’m feeling good other than a list of minor complaints…lots of lower back pain, calf cramps, my side hurting, waking up every hour to pee, daily heartburn, my ankles swelling when I’m on my feet too long, I can barely tie my shoes, shaving is almost impossible and little Noah using my bladder as his trampoline.

I will admit that I’m having trouble being as mobile as I used to be.. at times I feel like a beached whale. My doctor said that gaining about a pound a week is good and I’ve gained 24 lbs so far so I guess I’m right on target according to him. But honestly… I feel like that 24 lbs is more like 50 lbs. I’m doing my best to stay active. I am walking regularly, starting a new prenatal yoga class this weekend and feel like I’m eating well for the most part but geeze carrying all this extra weight around is a workout in itself! Just toting my baby bump should count as a daily workout!

Now to say that I’m Super Emotional and Sensitive would be putting it lightly. It doesn’t take much to turn me into a crying hot mess. Commercials. Songs on the radio. Anything slightly sensitive on television. Lord, I could go on and on about things that make me cry here lately. Les is choosing her words carefully because she’s learned I go over the edge quite easily these days. Ha! I think I’ve cried more in the last few weeks than I have in the entire 5 years she and I have been together. Bless her for putting up with me and my neediness.

Time is just flying by … 24 weeks down and just 16 to go then we’re going to be mommies! Still hard to wrap my mind around the idea of having him here.


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Seventeen Weeks

Well here we are 17 weeks along and things couldn’t be better!

The 2nd Trimester has been great. I feel like my old self again except for the fact that I’m a little larger than I used to be! As you can see from the picture, the baby bump is in full effect! It is so¬†nice to finally¬†be past the I just look like I’m getting fat stage.

Went out and purchased some much needed maternity clothes with Les about a week ago. Never thought I would be one that would want to wear the maternity pants with the elastic that comes up over your stomach and lands just an inch or so below the bra line, but I fell in love with the first pair I tried on! I will admit that they look totally ridiculous but they are sooooo comfy! Les had a good laugh when she saw the elastic waist up to my boobs, but said more than anything she just wanted me to be comfortable. And heck yes those bad boys are comfortable! I have a hard time wearing regular pants now because I love these so much!

We have a date set to find out the sex! So excited to find out¬†& start¬†on a nursery! June 26th which is still weeks away but gives us something to look forward to! Les is convinced it’s a¬†girl¬†& so are half the people who I work with. I don’t have a strong feeling either way…I really have no clue what it is. Guess we’ll have to wait and see!

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Old Wives Tales

Wow…its been a while since I last sat down to write. Things are rolling along really well. I’m¬†13 weeks now¬†and I can’t believe that it’s moving this fast. I’ve been feeling really good lately. All the first trimester symptoms¬†are coming to an end which means I’ll be rolling into, from what I’ve read, the best phase of the pregnancy. I’m just happy that everything has gone so well this far.

Do you believe in Old Wives Tales? I honestly don’t know if I believe them or not.¬†But here lately¬†I’ve been told by several people that we can guess the gender of our baby based on the heart rate. The old wives tale goes…

If the baby‚Äôs heart rate is above the 140’s, it is said that the baby will be a girl.¬† If it is in the 140’s or under, then it will be a boy.

So we’re just too impatient to wait to hear our baby’s heartbeat just once a month at our regular doctor visits. Thanks to modern technology and Ebay we were able to purchase our own fetal doppler monitor! It has been amazing being able to listen to the heartbeat whenever we want to.¬†The heart rate¬†has been in the¬†160’s so if we believed in the Old Wives Tale we would have to assume we are having a little girl!

But¬†I guess we’ll just have to wait and see…yes, Les has convinced me to find out what we are having. I was 100% against it at first but have decided that it is probably in our best interest to find out. I started to get worried about Les and Nate’s reaction to the baby’s sex being a surprise and thought it was okay to give in to modern technology and just find out.

And if you’re interested in a few more Old Wives Tales check these out…

Old Wives Tale #2: Shape of Belly
If you are carrying high with a big, round belly, you are having a girl. If you are carrying low with a smaller belly that sticks straight out, it’s a boy.

Old Wives Tale #3: Ring Test
Using a string, hang your wedding ring over your pregnant belly. You are having a girl if the ring swings back and forth and it’s a boy if it swings in a circle.

Old Wives Tale #4: Acne
If you have acne while pregnant, it’s a girl. It’s thought that acne during pregnancy is caused by the extra hormones.

Old Wives Tale #5: Cravings
People believe that if you are craving salty foods while pregnant, you can count on having a boy. If you crave sweets, fruit, and orange juice, you are having a little girl.

Old Wives Tale #6: Skin under Left Eye
The eye test is when a ‚ÄúV‚ÄĚ or ‚Äúbranches‚ÄĚ appear when you pull down the skin under your left eye. If you see a ‚ÄúV‚ÄĚ or ‚Äúbranches‚ÄĚ in the white part, you‚Äôre having a girl. I have a ‚ÄúV‚ÄĚ, so one more point for a girl.

Old Wives Tale #7: Time of Conception
The person that is most aggressive in bed at the time of conception is the opposite of what the baby will be.

Old Wives Tale #8: Legs
If your legs get really big, you’re having a boy. If your legs stay in shape and lean, it’s a girl.

Old Wives Tale #9: Moodiness 
If you are really moody, you are having a girl since you have another extra girl hormones in you. Your pregnancy will make you smile and be more happy if you are having a boy.

Old Wives Tale #10: Chinese Gender Chart
The Chinese Gender Chart claims to have an accuracy rate of over 90%. It is based on how old the mother is at conception and the month that she conceived.

Old Wives Tale #11: Mom’s Beauty
Basically you are having a girl if your beauty disappears during pregnancy. It is said that the girl ‚Äústeals‚ÄĚ the mother‚Äôs beauty. If you think that pregnancy has never made you look more beautiful, a little boy it is.

Old Wives Tale #12: Dream of Sex of Baby
If you have dreams that you are having a boy, you will have a girl. If you dream about having a girl, it will be a boy. Dreams show the opposite of what you are having.

Old Wives Tale #13: Clumsy vs. Graceful
If the pregnant woman is graceful throughout her pregnancy, she’s having a girl. If she becomes clumsy, she’s having a boy.

Old Wives Tale #14: Side You Most Rest On
If a pregnant woman prefers to lay on her left side, she’s having a boy. If she prefers resting on her right side, she’s having a girl.

Old Wives Tale #15: Dad’s Weight Gain
If the dad-to-be gains weight while you are pregnant, it’s a girl. If he doesn’t gain weight, you’re having a boy.

Old Wives Tale #16: Breast Test
If a pregnant woman’s left breast is larger than the right breast, she’s having a girl. If the right breast is larger, it’s a boy.

Old Wives Tale #17: What Do You Think?
71% of the time, the mom-to-be knows what she is having.

Old Wives Tale #18: Morning Sickness
If you had a smooth pregnancy with no morning sickness, it’s a boy. If you were sick or felt really nauseous during your pregnancy, count on a girl.

Old Wives Tale #19: Areolae
If your areolae (the part around your nips) have darkened, it‚Äôs a boy. If they haven’t, its a girl.

Old Wives Tale #20: Protein
When a pregnant woman craves meat and cheese, count on a boy.

Old Wives Tale #21: Feet
Are your feet colder now that you are pregnant? If so, you just might be having a boy. If your feet have stayed the same before pregnancy and during, you’re having a little girl.

Old Wives Tale #22: Headaches
If you are having headaches, you might be carrying a boy.

Old Wives Tale #23: Baby Names
It is said that when you can only think of specific names for a boy or a girl, you will have that particularly baby.

Old Wives Tale #24: Urine
What color is your pee? If it is bright yellow, you will have a little boy. If your urine is a dull yellow, plan on a girl.

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Up and Downs

Being pregnant has had its ups and downs. The ups have been amazing¬†but¬†right now I would say I¬†might be¬†on a down swing. My emotions are Out of Control and I am exhausted. I mean¬†so exhausted that it is all¬†I can do to motivate myself to change out of my pj’s¬†each day. So exhausted that I have to force myself to shower.¬†I can be laughing one minute then crying the next. No warning just tears.¬†Les and Nate have been real troopers through all of my emotions and neediness. I don’t know if I would be able to put up with me if I were them but they have managed it very nicely.

I currently¬†have a love hate relationship with food. Luckily (*Knock on wood*) I have not had any morning sickness. Now nausea is a different story…and this is where my battle with food begins. It seems that if I don’t eat something every few hours that I become really nauseas¬†and sometimes¬†dizzy too. So now I’m practically¬†having to eat around¬†the clock. Eating all the time is not as fun as it sounds.¬†I am feeling really guilty and worried about how much weight I could gain with this pregnancy. I’ve been asked if I’m craving anything and honestly all it takes is me seeing a food commercial and then whatever I just saw will consume my thoughts for hours. So in other words you could say I’m craving everything! But to get specific…I have been eating the heck out of sunflower seeds so I could say that is a craving. I plan to have the art of eating sunflower seeds hands-free down by the end of this pregnancy. Right now I look like a squirrel cracking¬†the shells,¬†chewing them up, and throwing or spitting out the shells.

Sunday was a rollercoaster of a day. We had a great Easter¬†lunch over at my parents house.¬†It¬†was a great chance¬†to see some of my family. None of my extended family really knows about the pregnancy yet and I’m just lucky that Les isn’t super talkative because I forgot to tell her that my grandparents and aunt’s family don’t know about it yet. She didn’t mention it but¬†that could have been fun if she did.¬†Ha! So the¬†worst part of the day was¬† that I was feeling EXTREMELY¬†bloated. I couldn’t have sucked in my stomach if my life depended on it. I felt huge! Thank goodness for my maxi dress that¬†helped hide my stomach.¬†I couldn’t get comfortable all day¬†and saying I was¬†feeling miserable is an understatement. Poor Les kept trying to tell me that I looked beautiful and that she was¬†happy to see my little belly showing but I was not in the mood for compliments.¬†I reminded her that we just read that the baby is the size of a kidney bean right now so there was no excuse for me to have my gut sticking out so far. I battled my emotions all evening and bless her for listening to me whining. She gave me a fantastic back rub which helped a little. It¬†didn’t change how uncomfortable I was but did feel great while she did it. I must tell you that I feel incredibly lucky to be married to such an amazing woman who loves me despite how challenging I can be. Hope she can hang in there since we have a long 31.5 weeks left!

But regardless of the ups and downs during this pregnancy I’m just happy to be experiencing it all. I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason and this was just our time. Some of you may know that Les¬†was trying to get into Med School for this up coming year¬†and unfortunately that didn’t happen this go round. But¬†I truly feel like it didn’t happen for her¬† because¬†we were meant to get pregnant and have this baby before she gets in. Now I don’t have to worry about going through any of this alone and she gets to be involved 100% the whole way through.¬†My heart breaks for the couples that I know are going through this process and it hasn’t worked yet. Don’t give up hope. It will happen when the time is right.


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Little Nugget

Friday was a big day. We went to have our first ultrasound! We were so excited and ready to get a glimpse¬†at our little nugget. Not sure what we were expecting but everything still just seemed so unreal. The ultrasound technician called us back and set us up. We were nervous and honestly not sure what to expect. Les was right by my side holding my hand and we¬†were both staring intently at the screen.¬†The ultrasound lady was so sweet. She¬†talked us through what we were seeing step by step;¬†then¬†she said¬†the words we were waiting to hear, “And that right there is your little baby.” It was amazing! So tiny and sweet! The best part was when she focused in right on the baby and another screen pops up and then¬†there it was….. The baby’s heartbeat! It was so fast and so strong! Tears welled up in my eyes and I just squeezed Les’s hand as tight as I could. That was it.¬†Our baby. I cannot¬†put into words the feeling that came over us. Joy and Happiness just don’t seem to say enough. After the ultrasound was over she gave us a strip of the first photos of our little nugget. So excited to show these off.

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Every Little Thing

Well I’m about 4 weeks along now and pregnancy is not as easy as I remembered it being. This is like a whole new world for me. It’s amazing how much you can forget in 12 years!¬†So this time around I will admit I’m a nervous ninny. Every little cramp or pain makes me worry. I have been cramping off and on since finding out and thought that there is no way that cramping is normal but it is. Apparently¬†my uterus is stretching and making the placenta for the baby to live in so that explains it.¬†I will admit that¬†Les and I¬†have both¬†been googling every little thing that¬†we can think of and I’ve been¬†reading other people’s blogs about their pregnancy and comparing notes.¬† But for the record I know what is not normal and that is that my boobs are growing by the minute! I swear they have never been this swore before! I would put money on it that they have gained 5 lbs each since us finding out. It is insane!¬†I am extremely tired. I’ve been¬†going to bed early every night and taking¬†a nap at¬†somepoint most days.¬†I’m emotional and sensitive. I have no idea how many times I’ve cried or had a minor mental meltdown¬†for no reason at all.¬†I couldn’t button my skinny¬†jeans without squeezing the air out of myself so I cried about that. Lets just say I know that I’m going to get big and thats great but its only been 4 weeks and I’m not ready to out grow my clothes yet! I really haven’t gained much weight but feel extremely¬†bloated.¬†And speaking of my meltdowns¬†a few days ago Les and I made a trip to Target where I had to repark the car because I thought she didn’t park it straight enough. Then in store she made the mistake of telling me that I was acting like a crazy person. I started crying in the middle of an aisle, couldn’t make myself stop so I had to leave the store and go wait for her in the car. Ha! This is so silly. I’m beginning to think that pregnancy¬†is making me lose my mind!

But over all everything is going really well. We are super excited about having our first Ultra-sound done next Friday…I can’t wait to see it on the screen and have picture proof!


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It’s Official

Well its official the Doc says I’m 100% pregnant. Not that I didn’t already know it but hearing it from him makes¬†us feel better! Bright and early this morning we went to my appointment. While in the waiting room our doctor’s nurse came to get another patient and spotted us.¬†She gave us a big grin and said, “Hey Ladies! So happy to see you guys! Can’t wait to hear how this came about!”. We were called back¬† a few mins later¬†and of course she wants to know how this all happened. So I give her the quick run down about how we had decided we couldn’t wait the 6 months for the clinic. Ordered everything online that we needed for¬†the home insemination. Picked up the fresh swimmers from our donor 2 days in a row. Then¬†did¬†the inseminations¬†ourselves. She just kept saying, “He is just going to die when he hears this news! This is amazing! I’m so excited!” Ha! It was so sweet. So our 3rd Wheel pokes his head around the corner while I was still sitting at the nurses desk answering questions and he has this big smile on his face. She says to him, “You’ll never believe what they did! They ordered stuff online and did the insemination at home and now¬†they’re pregnant!” He leaned in and gave us both a High-Five, says Congrats¬†and tells us we’ll have to¬†give him all the details once he sees us in the exam room. So a few mins later we’re back in a room and he comes into talk to us. He got a little confused on the details with our insemination and thought that we had done an IUI¬†by ourselves at home! Ha! No Way! It was much easier for him to let everything make sense when we told him that we did ICI at home. We did a quick run down of possible due date and right now he’s saying Nov 15th!!! We were too early to do an ultrasound but have one scheduled in 2 weeks. We discussed all the do’s & don’ts. In that discussion I received the best news ever! I can drink coffee!!!! I mean he said not to go overboard but 1 or 2 cups a day is fine. Sweet Lord… 1 cup is all I need!!!¬†I was so excited I wanted to jump off the exam table and give him a hug!¬†So we left there feeling¬†so lucky and¬†happy¬†to have a doctor and nursing staff that is so supportive of us.

Now on to my other latest business. Last night I decided to tell¬†my little man the big news¬†while he and I were having a Momma & Son dessert date on the couch. Originally Les and I¬†planned to tell him together but last night I couldn’t wait any longer.¬†¬†She was at work and I just really wanted to tell him. So I said, “Well I’ve got a big surprise for you. You’re……going…..to be…………(Long pause where he and I both kept laughing bc he said I was smiling funny)……a Big Brother!” It was the best reaction ever! You could see it all over his face! He was so excited! He gave me a big hug and said, “I want a brother please. I’m already outnumbered in the house I need another boy to balance things out.” Ha! So cute! I just adore that boy! He wants to tell everyone now. He wanted to be the ones to tell my parents which was like a huge weight lifted off my shoulders! Ha! I said sure thing buddy of course you can be the one to tell them. My parents invited us over for dinner so it was the perfect time to go ahead and do it. Les had to work so it was just us two over there and he couldn’t even wait until we sat down to eat. He told them kinda¬†like I told him. He said, “So, Nana and Big Daddy,¬†I’ve got some big news for you. I’m…(pause)….going to be………(pause)….. a Big Brother!” To my amazement they we actually happy, smiling¬†and excited to hear the news! Score! What an awesome feeling?!? They asked a few questions about how far along I was and other little stuff but both kept saying that they we happy and excited for us. Such a relief!

Wow…I am just overwhelmed with all of the love and support that we’re getting right now. I can’t even begin to explain how¬†great it feels to have¬†people happy and excited for me that I’m pregnant. My first pregnancy was not like this at all. I¬†know that it was because of how young I was¬†and because it was very¬†unplanned but there was no celebration when I told the news.¬†I felt ashamed most of the time that I was pregnant and its so great to feel like this is something to be proud of now. Wow….just feels like a dream. So happy that I feel like I could burst!


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Dip Stick

Well the waiting was unbearable. I gave in on Monday and decided to go ahead and take a test early. I did the whole routine and peed¬†in a cup, which I have become quite a professional at doing I must say… Then¬†I dipped the stick and waited to see the NOT PREGNANT words appear. The stupid thing kept flashing and flashing…I thought for sure it was broken but¬†finally words¬†magically appeared… PREGNANT.¬†I thought my eyes were screwing with me and I¬†wasn’t reading it right. I went into the bedroom and woke Les up. She had worked¬†the night before so she was quite startled by me shoving a pregnancy test in her face saying, “Oh My God read this for me… What does that say?” She rubs her eyes and puts her glasses on…. She looks at it and then looks back at me. “It¬†says you’re Pregnant!” We kept looking at the stick like the words were going to change. The feeling of disbelief came over me. Sweet Lord…this can’t be true. I mean this is what we’ve been wanting and waiting for but REALLY?!?!? Is it really happening?!?!? I’m still in shock 3 days later. I would have never guessed that we would have been successful after our first at home insemination. We were both prepared for several more months of this process. I still can’t believe it. I’m so happy I feel like I could explode!

I’ve been dying to blog about it and let everyone who has been so supportive know our good news¬†but Les wanted me to wait a little bit. She finally gave me the green light today¬†to tell everyone. We have a doctors appointment for Tuesday for conformation¬†But things are looking good. I’ve now¬†taken 3 tests and have had 3 positives results. So¬†I guess its time to let it sink in.

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Fix This

Well¬†I’m in the two-week¬†wait period and I’m going nuts. Exactly one week ago we finished up our back to back inseminations¬†and I have to wait another week before I will know if it worked or not. This is bogus. This week has just been creeping¬†along¬†and I’m pretty¬†close to losing my mind.¬†I’m¬†requesting that¬†some scientist¬†out there fix this problem. Surely someone can come up with something that¬†could let us know sooner if we are prego¬†or not. If we can send people to the moon surely we can figure out if I’m pregnant before two weeks of waiting.

So for¬†now¬†I’ll be waiting and¬†looking for all the signs that¬†it worked¬†which are¬†all the same signs¬†of starting my period. I’ll probably¬†take a test next Thursday and I’ll give everyone¬†an update then.¬†After being in this game now for several months I have learned to not gets my hopes up too high but at the same time it would be really nice if¬†it worked.¬†I’m already¬†planning out my week so that I will stay really busy and the days will fly by. Have a great weekend everyone!

~ M

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We Did It

We Did It!!! I have to tell you that this was by far the most interesting experience. I’ll give you the run down of how it went…and I’m going to try really hard not to ramble!

So Thursday was the BIG day! We packed up what we would need for our quick stay at the hotel and left the house in separate cars. Les headed to check us into the hotel and set everything up for the insemination. I headed to our donors condo to pick up Jiz Cup #1. Yay!!! So I was supposed to pick it up at 3 and of course, for the first time in my life, I’m way too early. Like 30 mins too early. I was a nervous wreck! I drove around in circles until I couldn’t stand to wait anymore. I pulled into this complex at 2:45. I was shaking and my heart was racing! I called Les and said “I’m still early! I don’t want to rush him… it could cause him to have some kind of stage fright! What do I do?” She said “Goodness, calm down. Just send him a text. Its okay.” So I nervously sent him a text saying I was there and no rush just let me know when he was ready for me to get it. A few mins later I get a message from him saying it’s there. We had agreed that he would sit it on his porch in a bag when he was done. So I quickly make my way up the steps to grab the bag. (He had it in a MAC make-up bag, which told me his wife has good taste in make-up) I just knew that I was going to do something stupid like trip and fall on their front porch steps bc I was still a nervous wreck but thankfully I didn’t. I jump back in the car, put the cup between my legs to keep our little swimmers warm, and drive a quickly to our hotel…all of 2 miles away. I arrive to our room and handoff the cup. She had the room set up like we were about to do surgery….future doctor that she is. She gets the Jiz ready and I’m impatiently waiting for her to get this show on the road. All I could think was that our swimmers would be dying one by one if we didn’t hurry up and get them where they are supposed to be! So just like we had practiced…We used all of our fancy home insemination kit stuff and Les did the insemination perfectly. It went off without a hitch. It was surprisingly easy. Now that the swimmers were in, I propped pillows under my hips, put my legs up on the wall, and tried to relax. I know I must have looked ridiculous! The first twenty mins I felt fine then my legs started falling asleep. Then I started to feel like I needed to pee. Les wasn’t exactly sympathetic to how I was feeling… She reminded me I had to stay like that for at least another 20 mins. “We don’t want all of it to come back out! We need to keep them going in the right direction… come on you can do it. Just hang on a little longer.” So I did. I managed to stay that way for an hour! After a quick bathroom break I laid back down with my sweet wife to nap and stay relaxed…Day One was Done!

I didn’t sleep a wink Thursday night in the hotel by myself. Les was working just mins away and would be meeting our donor there in the hospital at 6:40 a.m. to pick up Jiz Cup #2. I was so jealous that she was going to get to meet him face to face! She agreed to meet him at work not knowing what to expect…would it be awkward? Would he act like he was handing her a bomb? Behind her she hears this happy voice say, “Good Morning”. She is slightly startled but turns around to see him smiling at her with the bag ready to hand to her. At first she thought he was shaking the bag at her to get her attention, but then noticed it was his whole arm shaking. Bless his heart! He must have been so nervous and totally freaked out! She says thank you. And he says, “Your welcome. See you later!” and is out of her sight in a split second. She calls me when she gets in the car and says, “Oh my God he is so cute and adorable! You can really tell he is a great guy!” Well that was just a HUGE relief! So she arrives at the hotel just a few mins after picking it up and I have everything set up this time. We feel like Pros doing it today. I should have had a stopwatch going to time how fast we were. Then like the day before I practically stood on my head afterwards, pillows piled under me and my legs on the wall. Lasted the full 45 mins and without a single complaint that time. When the time was up we laid down to get some much-needed sleep. We were both completely worn out! Slept a solid 5 hours and I don’t think I moved the whole time. We packed up and headed home so happy that it went so well and glad that we had officially broken our At Home Insemination Cherry! WooHoo!

Now the two-week wait begins.