It happened. I started. It sucked. I hate that the insemination didn’t work but I know we did everything that was within our own power right and it just wasnt meant to happen this time. I’m really sad that we have to take a break from trying but we really don’t have a choice. If Les gets into school for 2012 then we have to be ready and able to move at the end of July and me being really far along in a pregnancy would mean us not being able to do that.
We’re going back to the drawing board to look for a new donor. Yes I know, I know…we spent all that time finding and deciding on Hot Guy only to abandon him after 3 tries. But we are looking at a few other options and we have a few months to figure that out.
So it is what it is and the baby making process is paused. I’m trying to think of this as a much needed break from the stress I’ve been under. I know I’m going to need a distraction or somewhere else to focus my attention for a little while so I started filling out our calendar for November and thanks to Nathan’s basketball schedule I won’t have much time to be sad about not being pregnant I’ll be lucky if I can keep up with everything we have to do.